2010 what's up!

Welcome to 2010. First blog of the year. Bitch and a little writings for the readers.
I hate my job. Promotions are not what I want in life. I don't want to work for pheaa. I hate pheaa. Who doesn't? Again. Working out? Worst idea ever. I'm doing 10 miles next week on a bike. Getting ready for 36 miles at the tour de cure. Check that shit out!
I miss everyone, carly, meeks, michele, my ex. Oh ken, I love you. I need to blog more but I just don't have the time anymore. Once again I'm trying to build my business. life was truly more interesting when I blogged everyday.

Here goes:
The cigarettes don't satisfy
The way you always do.
God I miss you
And the things you used to do.
The you, the me, & the we.
The lights get brighter
Wheres my lighter?
The wine we brought, you bought
is darker than I remember 5 minutes ago
Just looking for a good score.

and again... I find myself in your eyes
As if I was drifting and along came shore
but we're far from shore.
and thats okay,
we'll be back again anyway
and when somebody steals out clothes
while we float along the waves
this sparkling blue ocean
we'll just laugh and order another round.

I miss the furniture we used to lie on,
but I'm happy with this
you & I and a beautiful beach
Just you and me, begging for sleep
Enjoy the sun, my love. The sun.
Is exactly what we've needed.
through the dire cold winter.

Where did we buy these clothes?
What is that music?
Why didn't we run away together
& who the fuck do we think we are.
I love you
I love you
I love you.


Carly, if you don't take some risk. You're getting thrown in my cabrio & we'll drive into the sun. xoxo

I'm here for your entertainment

Hello hating my body. Oh God this workout was the worst idea EVER! I have to be pretty though...this weekend I have to go buy new workout gear so I can look sexy at the gym. I'm hoping to be fabulous. I'm moving into the city and the idea of leaving my mom is totally weird. I have a sick connection with her.... for real I need to cut the cord already. People are judging. I just love her too much. Anyways, it's off to bed for this boy... Enjoy the video ;)

Wow.....

I'm so sorry I haven't blogged in ages... please don't be angry. I've been so busy, and broke...(I'll send your money!) It's been crazy! The good news is, gradually things are getting better, everyday. Soon I will be standing on my own two feet. I swear it!

So tomorrow I begin my new workout!
I have decided I'm going to build a new me for key west in just over 30 days... so I am going to work my ass off! I begin my workout tomorrow night, with lifting a cardio.
The plan is
Cardio in the morning 2-3 hrs, eating small throughout the day and then at night 1-2 hrs of lifting. This workout is going to kill me. I swear it! The problem is, I can't have 100's of queens trying to maul me because I'm the only one who can crack walnuts with their ass, or because I don't have a washboard. Instead I've chosen to have 30 days of Britney momentum, the appetite of Mary Kate Olsen, and the determination of Dorothy! The wizard will have abs for me yet!
I've decided to post my progress as I bloat myself to hell by drinking a case of water a day, as well as starve my body of any real nutrients. Lots of protein, Cum is full of protein, if only I could find an endless supply! Also I have to stop smoking, which if you ask me is bullshit. Marlboros are much cooler than high tops. Whatever.
So tomorrow I will be writing more, as well as posting before pictures...if I ever take them. I'll probably be bloated from drinking all this tasteless fluid called water. I don't get the point, it doesn't burn going down. Why drink it?

Workout music anyone? Daft Punk Kanye Style - Harder

Help

I hate my job.
I don't want to get paid. Ever. Again.
I want to run away to another country build a life with the natives and live off the land. I want to be a local. &&& I honestly think it's because I've always been so fucking desperate to fit in.

Ugh.... fuck it. I crave adventure every day. I'm hungry for it. I can't stand the cubicle life. The monotony of the shirt and tie. I just want to be free.



Save me.

You're a coke whore, but so cute.

I've been drunk for the past 48 hours. I've lost clothing, acquired books, fucked up relationships and somehow got wedged between two naked lesbians. I'm sorry it's been so long since I've written but I honestly have been so busy. I know have a good paying full time job. I'm in trouble with a TA on my floor because I flirted, went to far and now he's totally into me. Honestly why do people change their genders? I just don't understand it. I think it's great and I totally support it but really I want to know the drive behind it.... I'm so tired I can't write anymore... I'll try to write more this week. I have so much to blog about.

Greyson.

My name is Greyson
I go by Grey
I'm a good person, with good morals. but...

I like to be obnoxious in my car.
I sleep with numerous random partners...some of them still don't have names.
I don't really care about anything.
I live my life to the fullest and still manage to fulfill my goals.
I show up inappropriatly drunk to many important things.
I also have a great sense of style.
I can hold more liqour than you...and I'll prove it.
I never carry a wallet.
I speed alot.
I don't do drugs, only because I can't afford it.
I write for numerous online blogs, I used to get paid until I decided to send in submissions I wrote while drinking.
I am always the life of the party.
I am not ashamed of how I dance after 3 drinks, depending on the strength...9.
I enjoy everyday life.
I love everyone, sometimes too much.
I honestly don't give a shit what people think about me.
I hate working, I'd rather volunteer over seas.
I often wish I could forget everyone in my life and start over
I cannot quit smoking to save my life.
I used to smoke less when I was a wino.
I am a total wino.
I am easy.
I am the cheapest date ever.
I really don't want to have sex with you, I'm just after your money.
I am probably looking around the room for your wallet while we fuck.
I will go through your medicine cabinet sometimes and always your glovebox.
I have the most fucked up fetishes.
I love writing about sex.
I love music.
I will fall in love with you if Third Eye Blind is playing while you blow me.
I am a total jerk.
I am a total liar.
I lie because I'm not that interesting.
I am ashamed of most of my childhood.
I will never tell anyone the full truth about my father.
I am quite intelligent.
I hate one person....more than anyone else in this world.
I love everyone but him.
I love sex, but it bores me to death... I have no idea why.
I don't want to be friends with any of my friends anymore.

Come to think of it, everyone says I'm so interesting but really I never believe it's me that's interesting. It's the fabricated me. It took years to perfect.

Non of my friends fit me anymore. They used to but now I'm different. The sad thing is I love them all so I can't do it because I've done it so many times before. I meet a girl, we're best friends and then I peace out when I'm bored. The problem is nobody can keep up with me anymore. I want to go out and drink and be insane and I have so much energy I could do it for days. Nobody else understands my enthusiasm for anything. I think that's what's so annoying about my friends. They are all so boring it's so maddening. They're working full time jobs and in their spare time they do things like homework or they sleep. When I get off work I come home get a sandwich and I'm ready to run to the river and swim, or go out dancing, or go to a show, or just run around downtown and be crazy. Nobody understands that. There's no charisma. OMG that's exactly what is is. My friends are wayyy too boring for me. I need a clone of me. But I'm too moody. The thing is they can keep up the charisma for a while then they're done. I need all new friends. Minus joe. I couldn't live without my joe.

Free pie with purchase of anal beads.

I totally had a dream last night that I stopped along a magical river for free pie becuase the ice has grass in it so it was like a TON of blackberry and raspberry pie and it was free...so I stopped at this mom and pop shack where the woman stuffed me with pie and i wandered up into the woods and found out it was a big sex shop spread out with a pie cover up... hmmmm

Help

I start work tmr as a drug dealers Personal Assistant. This guy moves cargo through numerous locations. I want a real job.

GOD!

I'm a high class hooker without a cause.
I use notepad for everything. So life has been insane since the beginning of the music festival I'm creating we're now a couple hundred strong. In 5 days? A couple hundred people want to help...that's insane. There's really one person who I want to be involved in this but he's been to busy lately. he emailed me this morning but I'm too nervous to email him back... so if you're reading this I won't write you an email back... atleast I don't think I will. The fact that you ignored my voicemail justifies my nervousness. So call me...we'll talk. I am on hiatus with my boyfriend wtf? I don't know but I just got back from making out with travis in the giant parking lot. I need 100+ acres and my mind is all over the place. Ya know back to the one person, he's one person who I know beyond the shadow of a doubt would def understand the fest and really get whats going on and I know he could be a vital part, should be I should say, and I know that he would be of amazing assistance. Will he do it? probably not because he only msg's me now when he's on vacation and wants to fuck me, And that sucks. But hey he helped me in fla and I still haven't paid him back so I guess I can't really justify my bitching. I need some help I really do. I need to vent. I really do. I have way to much going on in my mind right now and the funny thing is nobody I know has any idea of what I've been up to. I'm in major trouble. And I'm in wayyyy over my head and I am in a really bad position that I don't want to be in. It scares me to death.

Before everyone ran off and got perfect
I wonder if I really was ever as lovely as they were
We held hands and ran, until everyone ran off
And left me standing by myself
I'm sure I looked real cool standing alone
Thinking they would come back and everything would be the same.
The worst corner of my mind
Is the one where everyone ditched me, and wouldn't let me back in.
FUCK YOU ALL FOR DOING THIS TO ME.

I bust tha windos out ya car

&&&I'm not even jewish. I never blog anymore but here's what's going on today...

Roni died this morning. I'm dealing. I'm angry.
I'm dealing. Grief sucks.
I guess I'm in my own form of shiva.

I just had to get that out there... this is what's going on lately...


I started working with this investor who wants to market my hemp shoes in hawaii. He's putting a business together for me but I honestly would rather do this with someone who I know better. Someone who really just gets me. I also want to go to burning man but right now money's a little tight. I'm working on making my life better everyday. I'm going to start working as an aerobics instructor and as a waiter. I need money and I need something more fulfilling. It's so lonely out here when you don't know anyone!

hmmm the seams are ripping and my bones are aching

sorry AGAIN

I realized I haven't blogged in forever so I'm going to tell you what's going on right now and what is happening in my life after that.
Okay so right now I have this overwhelming sadness as though I've just seem someone I shouldn't. Like that feeling when the troops come to the door to tell you your brother is gone. Or when you get the phone call... Your dad is dead. It's not a good feeling. I really want a cigarette but I don't want to get up.
Okay so here is what is going on right now in my life
1 I still am jobless.
2 I currently get along with nobody, love everybody
3 I started upcycling and creating art which is going to harrisburg next week for sale & exhibition.
4 I am running out of money
5 I'm dating ken, he's from philadelphia.
6 I haven't told anyone but we're talking seriously about moving in together.
7 There's also been talk about leaving the country together.
8 I really love my art.
9 I make hammocks now
10 I'm getting a booth in the fall for an art and such fair.
11 My shit is functional which is what I love
12 I'm currently working on twenty different projects
13 I'm running out of time to finish them because they need to go to shelf and I need a full time job.
14 I'm also writing again.
15 I don't think me and ken are going to work out...at all.



Ugh.

I know you should go home

You get a little frantic
I write you a song
You get a little tantric
But you sing it all day long
You've been drinking
So I'll play you some guitar
But I see the mood is sinking
When we're driving in your car
I know when somethings wrong
I know just what you need
You know when I'm feeling wrong
Hear it in the keys
When I find you
So melodic
Sitting all alone
I know there's something else to you
I know you should go home

And now for the first blog in for ever

I'm Mr.Lonely, who never says never. Some things, we don't talk about... How I love the fray. I find that when I'm lonely the piano helps but not tonight. I need something more. I need a guitar and a clove. I need a hug and a squirtgun, I need a beer and mostly I need a job. I need to learn the guitar I think I'm going to learn some fray songs on piano tmr. goodnight

Chicks dig tire swings

omg airfare to Peru is a bitch! I don't have the money for that shit! Seriously. I don't know if I can make it right now because the airfare is sooooo expensive! I'm scared because I found an amazing organization that does exactly what I want to be doing. They have the same views as I do. Any length of commitment is available and I can't wait to be apart. I'm trying to build a budget so I can lengthen my star so I can help more and I'm trying to find a job at the same time but honestly the air fare is killing. I'm going to cry. I'm so excited to go though like literally I'm squirming with excitement. yay!

I'm beginning to see

I smoke way too much. A pack o day? Are you serious right now?
You're so typical
With your gun belt
Walking to your house is like walking into the inquisition
The cameras
The spying
What is that you've been hiding?
Tell me here.
Before you beckon me in
Before I have to refuse such a sweet invitation
What the hell are you hiding in your trunk?
Is it a body?
Should I know?
Will you kill me if I peek?
Well it'll kill me if I don't
So I'm going to look
You better grab the tazer
Cause this bitch won't take no for an answer.


Also in other news. After my world peace blog here comes the one we've all been waiting for.
You think you can just treat people like the scum you are... I don't think so. I'm sorry that I had to take matters in to my own hands but that's for you. I'm not sorry I did what I did. You deserved those 4 flat tires and you'll deserve more if you dare play with fire again. Little boys never learn. Apparently you didn't get the point, You know I'm dangerous and you still reached your hand in just to be a little rebel didn't you? Well fire is dangerous and fire will burn. You got burned, and your tires were deflated. Oh well call mommy and she'll buy you some new ones. It's such a shame. Late to work? =( <---thats just for you. You need to learn I'm a dangerous bitch and you don't want to fuck with me. So the next time you see someone who's hungry and doesn't have a dime to his name I'm sure you'll give him a piece of chicken. Scumbag. If it were anyone else I wouldn't care, I'd be shocked because what kind of an asshole does that but I wouldn't be this upset. To be honest I really don't care anymore but I told you don't fuck with me, don't fuck with my family.... Well somebody didn't listen so somebody got punished. So I'm happy with you needing tires and having your car towed but next time you won't be so lucky. Next time it will be...bye bye college, bye bye job, and bye bye apartment. Trust me. You've seen my work. You've been warned.


and and and and and I still haven't gotten any replies from any programs yet... =(