me you the accordion and I

hi there, I know...it's been a while.

I come to you from the land of the ambulanzo...i've been working 5 / 13 hr days & 2 / 24 hr days a week.... I love my life. it's amazing... I have no life anymore which means I have no time to work on my music which is really upsetting seeing that I need music in order to survive. It bothers me that I have no time anymore it's like leaving your child at day care...the separation anxiety kills you but I don't want it to go away. I really need more time to work on music...other than just a day on the weekend which I don't have now... so so so I really want to buy an accordion but they're so expensive. I want this honhor more than anything else in the world, it's pretuned which would save me like 6300$$$ yes that 6300$$$ lots of mulah and it's only 300$$ after shipping and handling... I need it. I'm working on my accordion skills and I must say I'm not the worst in the world but I'm also not the best. I get like homesick just thinking about it. I know that tonight I will speed home to the piano and play until I can't keep my eyes open stumble to the couch feeling saddened because I don't have enough hours in the day and fall asleep sad. =( If I had an accordion I could play at work in between calls. That's really what I want. I need something I can bring to work and play which is why I want to invest in my very first accordion but I have to buy a car right now so I can work and my mom can at the same time...things are tight and borderline miserable. I hate working 91+ hrs a week depending on what my bosses want and hating my job and having no time and getting paid SHIT literally I would make more hourly at the piggly wiggly. No lie. No life. No energy. No sleep. No music. It's scary as hell...and it's sad. Without music where is the life?


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